mel

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 04:15:09 GMT

oh.my.god.

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 13:46:56 GMT

5 days

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 01:36:59 GMT

it kills me when people i care about are upset and i cant do anything for them. kills.

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 04:36:26 GMT

i never update anymore.
i have nothing to update on.

i work all of the time and dont really do much else.
i have made it a goal to travel more.
soo i went to chicago and st louis a little over a week ago.
it really was the best time i have had in a while.
i went up to hang out with alex and the rest of the boys.
they had two shows two nights in a row at the house of blues in chicago so i picked that time to go out with them so i could run and play in the city.
the trip was a blast.
i got to party a lot and make some really awesome new friends.
i really wish i could have stayed out longer. 4 days was not enough.

i get to go home for a week during christmas.
I CANT WAIT!
i havent been home in a YEAR.
ugh.
i havent seen my brother or grandmas in a year.
worst feeling ever.
i feel like i have just floated by this year.
it went faster than any other.

some life changes are in the air.
whether or not they happen is beyond me but i feel like they have opened my mind a bit.
got me thinking about my plans and goals.
and about what i truly want.

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 16:42:24 GMT

last night we took a spontaneous trip out to the beach.

it was really nice to see the stars so clearly again. shooting stars are pretty great too.

we went to prance around in the water and it turned out that the water was phosphorescent.
it literally will sparkle when you touch it. so the crashing waves all glimmer as they run up the beach. the sand sparkles when you walk on it. you can splash and kick water and its the most amazing sight.

i want to go back.. i felt like a kid again.

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 01:04:11 GMT

im so tired of holding on but im not sure how to let go.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 14:44:08 GMT

i have been having crazy dreams lately. either that or not sleeping at all.

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 12:30:13 GMT

i always feel so out of the loop.

and right know i kind of feel like AHHHHHHHHHH.
in a bad way.

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 14:14:04 GMT

i have some SERIOUSLY talented friends.

check out maradona if you havent already.

myspace.com/maradona

they have a new song from their ep up for only today. its soo good. (but not my personal favorite.. so pick up their ep when they release it)

Fri, 23 May 2008 20:03:14 GMT

gah so much going on.
last weekend was amazing.
i jumped out of a plane 2 miles above ground.
it was the most incredible thing i have ever done.
we have a huge party afterwards complete with a 26 foot water slide.
we dont kid around.
today rachael and i are going down to st pete to do a wedding with daniel.
(daniel is on this season of shear genius!!! everyone watch him!!)
i fly home tomorrow to go to the beach with my family. LIZ IS COMING!
im beyond exciteddddd.
its been 6 months.

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 03:51:31 GMT

my heart is broken and everything in the world reminds me of it.
and im tried of being alone in this house.

my grandma is in the hospital.
last time a family member had surgery he died. awesome.
i think she is doing okay.
i will die if she isnt.

i love my job but it seems to be the only thing that makes me happy these days.
how fucking sad is that.

im going skydiving in a few weeks.
and then i go to chicago a few weeks after that.
and then we go to congress in september.
all of which are going to be amazing.
and all are with people from the salon.
surprise.

i want to go home.
i miss my mom.
so so much.

im going to bed.
all i want is to cuddle with my cats.

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 12:50:39 GMT

last night we did the second fashion show of the week.
last nights only took a few hours.
soo much better than the fashion inc one which took 12 hours of insane back to back work.
it was a lot of fun.
we ended up going to the winery afterwards with a bunch of people from work.
i love hanging out with my bosses when they are drunk.

oh, and im going skydiving on may 17th. SWEET! adam is making me.
im really excited.

life is good. im just kind of at a point where im feeling restless and lonely.
its the worst feeling in the world.

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 14:25:39 GMT

To dream that you are being chased by a dinosaur, indicates your fears of no longer being needed or useful. Alternatively, being chased by a dinosaur, may reflect old issues that are still coming back to haunt you

i had a dream that i dinosaur was trying to eat me and i had to keep running away and hiding from it.
and that is so true.

im stressed out beyond belief and i dont even have time to write about it.
gotta go to work.

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 02:24:52 GMT

i joined the gym and i love it!
i actually like working out now haha
on the 17th im being a model at a photo shoot for the salon.
the entire shoot is 60s inspired.
jenny is doing me as dita von teese.
aka pin up girl.
im pretty excited about it but i am going to the gym every day until then haha.
have to look good in my corset.

go on and save your scissors

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 07:21:14 GMT

i just want the past 2 weeks to go away forever.

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 19:49:03 GMT

well great way to end a shitty week. NOT.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
i dont even know what to do.
i got way to drunk last night. oops.
oh well.. i was having a bad night and i was upset. shoot me.
im done with boys. they are all stupid and useless.
seriously who was i kidding?
i have no roommates. aka im fucking BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have no where to live come march and noone to live with.
im to poor to live by myself.
at least i have good friends and a great family.
and a good job.
KLSDAJFKLJSAKLFJASKLDFJKSLDJFAKL!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 13:54:13 GMT

everyone is being so weird this week.
im tired of it.
its not just me either.
everyone at the salon has been having a weird week.

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 23:57:31 GMT

i cant write in here anymore.
i have started writing entries like 5 times but i always delete them.
whatever.

update...

work is still good
im doing some editorial work next week.. that should be pretty cool
boys are weird so up and down.. im close to being over it.
i might buy a house this summer.. maybeee
im kind of screwed with living situations and roommates.
and thats about it.

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 01:23:07 GMT

i started my new job today!!!!!
i love it.
i work 6 days a week. its going to be so weird.
but i am so excited about it

1. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you laid in a bed with?
august

2. Where was the last place you went out to eat?
im about to go to kitcho when audrey gets home

3. What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed?
jess gaelle and i had a pitcher at momos last night

4. Which do you prefer - eyes or lips?
eyes

5. Medicine, fine arts, or law?
business?

6. Best kind of pizza?
cheese!

7. Is your bedroom window open?
no way. it is so cold out.

8. What is in store for your future?
a lot at the moment

9. Who was the last band you saw live?
umm.. stages and stereos?

10. Do you take care of your friends while they are sick?
if they want me to. a lot of people just like to be left alone

11. What is your favorite soda?
diet dr pepper

12. How many songs are on your iTunes?
4000ish

13. When was the last time you purchased something over $500?
tuition?

14. Where is the last place you drove to?
home from work

17. What brand of digital camera do you own?
canon

18. When was the last time you got a good workout?
a few days ago.

19. If you need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?
express

20. Where did your last kiss take place?
well i kissed people at new years.. i dont know if that counts

21. What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night?
haha taking pictures at brennas, drinking champagne

22. Are you a quitter?
nope

23. Who was the last friend you had in your house?
jess and gaelle

24. Can you speak another language?
nope. but i wish i could

25. How about you put your legs behind your head?
haha not going to happen

26. What are you doing this very second?
waiting for audrey to get home

27. Nickname?
mel

28. Describe what you are wearing in detail?
black shirt, dark denim express jeans, black kitten heal flats with a gold buckle

29. What do you think about people who party a lot?
um.. i do party a lot.

30. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
no

31. Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister?
not so much

32. What was the last CD you purchased?
no clue

33. What are two bands or singers that you will always love?
jimmy eat world and mae

35. Did you just have to google the seven deadly sins to see what they were?
did i miss a question?

36. Where is your favorite place to get coffee?
anywhere

37. Have you ever been offered a job?
yeahhh

38. Have you ever stolen anything off of a road?
haha yeah

39. When was the last time you dyed your hair?
all the time

40. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
audrey

41. Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks?
yeah

42. Miss someone?
yes :(

43. How is your last ex doing?
well

44. Is there someone you want to fight?
not at the moment

1. have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
not recently

2. Do hugs make you feel better?
from good friends

3. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
almost. i usually make it back to bed

4. Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before

5. What did you do today?
got up, drank tea and ate cheerios, did my hair and make up, changed, drove to work, drove home

6. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
i have not actually

7. Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
nope

8. Have you ever thought about your death?
yeah

9. Would you rather be in a long term relationship or play the field?
hard to say

11. What is your favorite sport?
I like watching soccer.

12. What color is your shower curtain?
lots

13. Have you ever had stitches?
nope.

14. How long ago did you hug someone?
last night

15. Did you believe that boys/girls had cooties?
im sure

16. Do you know how to use chop sticks?
duh.

17. Lyrics stuck in your head?
soft kiss and wine
what a pretty friend of mine
were finally intertwined

18. Do you like the Red Socks or the Yankees?
I don't care.

19. What are you doing tomorrow?
working

20. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of today?
no one today

21. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
yeah

22. Have you ever run over an animal?
no

23. What is your favorite cereal?
fruity pebbles

24. Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
yes i have

25. What are you doing right at this moment?
waiting for audrey

26. Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
i dont care

27. Where’s your favorite place to be?
with my friends

28. What's your favorite song?
right now. anything by we the kings

29. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
alcohol

30. Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
no

32. Have you ever climbed up a water tower?
nope

32. Have you ever been arrested?
no

33. Do you dream in black and white?
i dont think so

34. Do you talk in your sleep?
no clue

35. Do you snore?
i dont know

36. Have you ever thought about being a model?
when i watch americas next top model

38. Funniest thing you heard all day?
this is crude. the girls at work talking about giving themselves brazillians and getting their lips stuck together bahaha

39. Ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face?
I don't think so.

40. What are you afraid of?
knives

41. What does the 10th text message in your inbox say?
im going home now. you can home over if you want.

42. Do you like someone?
sure

43. Do they know you like them?
sure

45. Can you recite the alphabet backwards?
it would take a while

46. What’s your middle name?
renee

47. What's your profile song and why?
go radios new song

48. What's your mobile ringtone?
ring ring

49. Need to get something off your chest?
yeah

50. How do you feel about your life right now?
its really good most of the time

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1.] Where was the first place you ever kissed the last person you kissed?
in his yard

[2.] What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
making money

[3.] What's the worst thing that happened to you today?
being tired

[4.] Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
sleep in.

[5.] Tell me where you got each article of clothing you're wearing?
forever 21, express, harolds

[6.] What's the closest thing to you that is brown?
table

[7.] What would you change about your life right now?
um.. i would transport a few people here. and figure out what i want

[8.] Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
cry over the truth.

[9.] What's on your bedroom floor right now?
lots of clothes.

[10.] Who was the last person you got into an argument with?
hah

[11.] Do you trust people?
yeah

[12.] If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
nowhere

[14.] Could you go a day without eating?
ouch

[15.] How much do looks matter to you?
i have to be attracted to someone to be with them

[16.] How do you feel about sex?
depends

[17.] When was the last time you had your hair cut?
i cut my bangs all of the time

[19.] Does it take a lot to make you cry?
yeah

[20.] What's the best feeling in the world.
being with the people I love.

[21.] Are you close with your mom?
yeah

[22.] Are your parents strict?
no

[23.] Do you tell your parents everything?
most everything.

[24.] Would you rather be a bird or a fish?
bird

[26.] If you need to go to the store a block away, do you walk or drive?
if it is nice, definitely walk.

[27.] Does the thought of marriage scare you?
when i realllllyyyy think about it..kind of but i am excited

[28.] How many kids do you want to have?
1 or 2

[29.] What's your favorite color to wear?
black

[30.] Who was the last person in your bedroom besides you?
jess and gaelle

[31.] What did you do today?
worked

[32.] Would you rather be rich & sad or poor & happy?
thats hard

[34.] What would you do if you found a dinosaur egg?
be rich

[35.] Do you get bored easily?
yeah

[36.] What's something that someone can do that really bothers you?
not call when they say they are going to

[37.] Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
nope

[38.] Do you wish you were famous?
not at all.

[39.] Do you make a wish at 11:11?
nope.

[40.] When you're at the beach, do you swim or lay out more?
lay out

[41.] Who's the last message you received from and what did it say?
katy "awww"

[42.] What are you freakishly obsessed with?
nothing that i can think of

[43.] What's your favorite song at the moment?
we the kings

[44.] Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online?
mall

[45.] Can music affect your mood?
oh yeah

[46.] What piercing do you want?
none.

[47.] What tattoos do you want?
none

[48.] Have you ever been in a cave?
no

[49.] Ever eaten a bug?
im sure

[50.] When will you see the person you like next?
tonight maybe? who knows.

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 22:22:46 GMT

i had an amazing christmas!
my family is so much fun. i could not have asked more.

but now im ready to get home and start working.
i miss all of my friends.. a lot more than i thought i would.

tomorrow im going to say bye to keyton :(
and then either go to sleep early and leave at 6 or just drive through the night.
most likely the first one.
it will be good to be home.
i hate being here and not being able to get things done at home.
and i miss my cats.
im sure they made a hugeeee mess.

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 17:17:06 GMT

2007

1) Where did you begin 2007?
-amelia circle

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
-single

3) Were you in school? (anytime this year)
- sure was

4) How did you earn your money?'
- tips

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
- not for myself

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
- nothing major

7) Where did you go on holidays?
- south carolina

8) What did you purchase that was over $1,000?
-tuition

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
- katy and jason!

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
- yes

11) Did/Do you like someone?
- yeah

12) Did you move anywhere?
- yep! to florida!!

14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
- hahah

15) Are you registered to vote?
-yes

16) Who did you want to win Big Brother?
- don't know what that is

17) Where do you live now?
- same apartment i have all year

18) Describe your birthday?
- lots of beer, slip n slide, awesome people

19) What's one thing you thought you'd never do but did in 2007?
- no thanks

20) What has been your favorite moment?
- far to many. i have spent countless nights with amazing people

21) Where did you go on vacation?
- i dont think i have..

22) Any new additions to your family?
- nope

23.) What was your favorite month?
- i cant even pick

24) How much have you partied?
- haha.. a lot

26) Made new friends?
- a ton :)

27) What did you do for 4th of July?
- went to the lenzos and had a fire. awww fun

28) Favorite Night out?
- i cant choose every night with my friends is amazing

29) Name the instance in which you had most to drink.
- recently... graduation night

30) Are you in a relationship with someone you met this year?
- nope

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 16:49:56 GMT

im done!
i have the best friends and family ever.
this weekend has been amazing.

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 16:32:26 GMT

never again never again never again.
im done.

i want to see alyssa. ugh.
i cant wait to go home.
it was so good to see everyone here and spend time with my family but i miss tallahassee.

sometimes i make stupid choices.

my family and friends are the most amazing people i have ever met.
i am blessed to have them as part of my life.
they are what makes my life worth living.

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 23:11:08 GMT

ugh. should have gone to st pete on sunday.
oh well.. i still had a good time.

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 00:06:46 GMT

and while i wait for my hair to process...

1. Were you dating the last person you kissed?
sure wasnt

2. Pretend you've had two liters of cider. Describe what you would be doing:
why would i do that?

3. What do you want?
for my hair to be done so i can go eat sushiii

4. Do you talk to yourself?
i do

5. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
no

6. Who knows a secret or two about you?
keyt, hill, audrey, katy, kass, tay

7. How long is your hair?
chin length

8. Do you like Batman?
not really

11. Do you swear at your parents?
i dont swear at them. i swear to my mom sometimes but never because i am mad at her..its always because im mad at someone else.

12. Do you like anyone now?
i do

13. When was the last time you lied?
i dont remember

14. When was the last time you cried?
saturday

15. Is your birthday on a holiday?
nope

16. What instant messaging service do you use?
aim

17. Last thing you cooked today?
havent cooked today.

18. Did you have a nap today?
i guess you could say that. it was more of a..i had to get up because my ride home was about to leave me so i got up and then came home and went back to bed.

19. Who's house did you go to last night?
beta bar then steve, patrick, matt, katy and jasons house.

20. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
even for sure

21. Why is the sky blue?
whatever.

22. Do you like green beans?
yeppp

23. Do you swear a lot?
yes

24. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
no clue where i got it

25. Have any regrets?
duh

26. Do you use an alarm clock?
yep. ihome

27. Where was your default MySpace picture taken?
mexican on my birthday

28. Do you ever snort when you laugh?
sometimes.

29. What's the first thing you notice on the preferred sex?
hair and smile

30. Is cheating ever okay?
never

31. Do you want something you can't have?
hmm.. maybe

32. Do you wear underwear?
yep

33. Who would you like to see right now?
my mommmm

34. Are you a social or anti-social person?
both. i am very social but i like my alone time

35. Do you have a tan?
yepp

36. What's something you regret?
secrets

37. Went walkies?
...?

38. What radio station do you listen to?
i dont

39. Are you afraid of the dark?
sometimes

40. Do you miss someone today?
yes

41. Last person who you told your problems to?
haha katy last night.. "i think i have a problemmm..."